I write this because of a tragedy that took place in a town near us last week and involved a lady that was just a year ahead of me in high school. She was popular in high school and was a cheerleader and played tennis. She seemed to remain friends with most everyone after school as well. She was very bubbly and seemed to have life together to those of us that encountered her even after all these years since school. She had talked with some people about her struggles, but most of us never seen the issues she was truly dealing with. She struggled with anxiety, depression, and I believe some mental health issues. Last week, this woman allowed those demons to take the light that she shone away as she drove to a local school parking lot and shot herself.
When I think of the things that must have gone through her mind on that drive and during those last few moments, I struggle to imagine the pain and anguish she must have been in and was too lost to reach out. How horrible to feel that death is your only release to the pain that you are struggling with. I wonder- did she pray, did she cry, did she just feel so numb and helpless that she just had no emotion left as she drove? Why did she pick the school parking lot? Was it the place that she began to feel the anxiety and depression that she held so beautifully inside? Was she there to reminisce of the happy times in her life? Were they the worst years of her life?
Please if you find yourself struggling with these emotions reach out to someone- ANYONE! Please realize that you are loved and that someone considers you a friend. Your life ending is a permanent solution to a temporary problem and someone is out there to help you. Reach out, call someone, talk to a doctor or specialist, talk with a friend, walk into a nursing home and speak to residents there to brighten their day. Do something nice for a neighbor or friend, even a stranger and realize that you are important and loved! YOU MATTER!!!!!