Holiday time is right upon us and it is not any different here on the farm. Animals have changed and we no longer have any horses or large animals, except for the Great Dane that my husband loves so much. We still have ducks, rabbits, chickens, cats and dogs, which still takes some time to take care of, but life is much simpler these days.
With the holidays around the corner, I am quite busy with many plans with friends and family as well as with gifts, decorating, and all the hustle and bustle that comes with the holidays. With that craziness, I have also found out that I am looking at another foot surgery in January that will once again take me off my feet for several weeks and recovery will be close to 6 months or more again. UGH! Because the doctor wants it to be early January (the 12th to be exact), I am not doing much decorating this year and it makes the holiday not seem as bright and shiny.
Matter of fact, I am emotionally really struggling in many aspects of my life and I am attempting to find some happiness and peace in my life. I am going to see a counselor after seeing the doctor a couple of days ago and a long talk led us to believe that I might benefit from it. I have never had any type of mental health issues, but I truly feel that I need some help. There is no reason to be ashamed of how I am feeling and I know that I need to deal with many issues before the issues that I am having destroys many relationships in my life. I am having some problems in my marriage that my husband does not see as a problem, but I see it as a real problem and I can not accept the ways things are currently. Neither of us have had an affair or anything crazy, but I am struggling with some things that I don't like from an employee of his and he doesn't see it as any issue. Maybe a therapist will help me to be able to explain better to him how I feel.
What are your plans for the holiday season? Baking cookies, Christmas music, friends and family? I am trying to plan some fun activities for the grands while the oldest is on Christmas break. I have a few places that I want to take them and some fun activities that we can do together as well. I plan to bake cookies next week sometime. I will be celebrating the holiday with my son and daughter in law on the 18th and I hope to have desserts made by then.