Another Surgery, Another 8 Weeks

Three weeks have passed since I had yet, another surgery on my foot. The left foot that I had surgery on in January had to be operated on again because the hardware that was placed in to hold the bones in place was not holding and the screw had begun backing out and had to be replaced, but due to the time it had been happening, more extensive hardware had to be placed in. Another surgery, another 8 weeks of non-weight bearing before I am able to walk again. I can't win! I have been in this chair and on the knee scooter more than I have walked this year, it seems. I am so over the issues with my feet.

I have a fabulous podiatrist and he does great work, but I will be glad not to see him for a period of time longer than a few months. I am so tired of surgery and the waiting to walk. It limits everything that I can do and it drives me crazy to rely on others. My husband is always more concerned about his work than being here to care for me. He is usually outside for over 12 hours a day without even a call to check on me and he can't tell anyone no on anything. Last night instead of helping me shower for the first time in three weeks, he went out at 9 p.m. ( after coming in to make dinner at 8:30 p.m., which consisted of a smoked sausage sandwich) to he help someone put a new tire on. I just feel that puts everything at home off and truly does not care about me these days.  I just need to walk!

Anyhow, that is another subject entirely. I am patiently waiting these 8 weeks out and once I am able to walk again, I will be making several changes to my life. I have thought a great deal about life and what I want and what is life now is not how I want things to be for the rest of my life. I have always put him, my kids, and my family before myself and I am going to make some changes. I have worked two jobs most of our marriage as well as home schooled our children, taken care of  his parents, made sure that all of his bills were paid and handled most of the household stuff. I realize as I am down that we are not in the same thoughts of how life and marriage should be. I realize that my feet have taken quite a bit away from the way I can do life, but I will survive this and I will make life happier for myself.

The farm is okay as far as I know. I can't get out to check on the animals or anything at the moment. I know we lost two baby bunnies last week due to no one feeding or watering them for two or three days. I guess my husband and daughter forgot that we have animals. I truly do not understand. It does not take long to feed and water. It may be a bit of an inconvenience certain days, but it must be done. Work for the farm is left to me or my father-in-law, who is currently il

Enough of my complaining, it just keeps me upset and I need to look at the positive side of things. My foot is finally repaired and it seems to be healing nicely. Less swelling than previous surgeries, but much more pain. It will be get better and I will walk again. My foot structure is a mess was what the podiatrist said yesterday and said that there is nothing more we can do so we must make the best of it. I will the same as I always do. 

I hope you all have a fabulous Friday and I will be sure to update everyone on life soon. I promise I will be here more often now that I am able to be out of bed. Have a great day and until our trails meet again, smile!